A lot of shit has happened in 2017. I even started saying shit more and don't feel an ounce of guilt about it. As the page turns and we are about to enter into a new year I feel lighter. I also feel like my new beginnings began well before we were preparing how we'd spend ringing in 2018. I guess these feelings manifested from all of the time and energy I've invested into making sure I felt new internally before trying to manifest anything new physically. It's refreshing. I presently feel so restored and transformed. I am at a pivotal place in my life. A place that seems a bit surreal. For a long time I never really thought that I could be where I am today. I am dancing with destiny. I am love. I am experiencing love in every aspect of my life and for that, I am forever grateful.
Just years prior I was in a very dark and gloomy place. I was dealing with that feeling of not really knowing where I was going, battling depression and overall life transitions. I was terrified of what was to come of the future because everything ahead seemed dark. It was like a dark cloud had hovered over my life. To no surprise, the more focused I became on finding peace, the more I healed. The more healing that occurred the more I grew and understood the reasoning behind why I went through all that I went through. Is it cliche to say that I no longer live in expectancy of what is to come? I've learned to live and just do what feels right in my spirit. I live to embrace everything no matter what it is.
2017 had its pits and peaks. I can’t really harbor on the pits because despite how bad things got, growth and perseverance came from those bad experiences. I spent this entire year discovering who I am on a deeper level and falling immensely in love with me, my life and everyone in it. Authenticity became a primary focus. I only wanted to live authentically as myself. I wanted nothing in my life or around me that didn't represent my truth. I discovered another superpower. Thinking back on the bad times in comparison to where I am today, I am grateful for my patience with it all. I now see that as time progressed, the Universe just began to make a way. Incredible things began to happen. Life began to look and feel different. My biggest advice to you for the coming year is to fall in love with the process. Fall in love with your life despite how confusing, dark and unpredictable it may seem. There is always, always light at the end of the tunnel. One must learn to appreciate the darkness because it is after all where we thrive and shine the most.
Something that got me to this point in my life was creating love within which essentially is what manifested love around me. From there, my life took a whole new direction that was unexpected but well needed. This love for self didn't start in 2017 though, it began years ago in that really dark space. I stopped requiring others to pull me out and truly began to rely on self. I stopped being so focused on what was ahead and centered in on the present. Ignore the destination. Ignore where you’re headed but pay attention to signs and lessons along the way.If you’re distracted by the destination, you miss the opportunity to be transformed by the lessons sent to you along the way on your journey. Take in the process because it’s honestly what’s molding you into a new version of yourself.
2017 was the year that solidified the importance of needing to release it all in order to progress. I’ve learned that death is a gift. Death is imminent. Death is a symbolization of new beginnings. I welcomed death in every aspect this year. I’ve learned that people are just that, people. We can live our lives counting on them. We can live in expectancy of external forces to fill us in places that we avoid or we can choose to not give our power away. We always have the free will to choose ourselves by not giving others room to shape how we see, think or feel about ourselves or life in general. Take your power back in 2018. Stop letting what happened to determine your strength or the fate of your tomorrow.
Life is 10% of what you do or what has been done to you. The other 90% I believe is really based on your perspective and how you view and handle what you experience. How are you viewing what happened? Are you wallowing in your pain and sorrows? Are you immediately forgiving and moving on? Are you harboring the pain that others caused? Are you unforgiving of mistakes, holding grudges? Take account of it all because all of this determines how your days are shaped. I took my life into my hands this year. Investing in myself, my brand and my future this year taught me freedom. It has taught me that the sacrifices I am making now are truly going to be rewarding in the end. It has taught me to expect the unexpected and that life truly comes full circle.
The more I focused on the woman I wanted to become I became her. I am at this deep level of love and appreciation for self. So much so, I deeply love and appreciate the world and life in a way that I never have. I feel on such a deep and intense level. I’ve been a magnet for all things that are in support of my highest good. I’ve been working my ass off to serve the world through my creativity. The blog grew in more ways than I could ever imagine. I just see so much growth. I fought to become all of who I am. I am grateful for the people in my life who are constantly guiding me and inspiring me to seek better, do better and be better. I am dancing with possibilities. I realized that what I accept or act on I no longer have to chase, it’ll be right there when I am ready to receive it. Because what my heart is seeking is also seeking me too.
Back in 2015, I had a dream that I was pregnant. I had to have been about 7 or 8 months along in my pregnancy. I was at a maternity shoot and the only people around were friends. I was smiling and happy. I woke up from that dream knowing that at any moment I was preparing to give birth to my vision soon. In 2016 I dreamt I gave birth to a pink lotus. 2017 was the year of that manifestation of all things I’ve created and given birth to have come to life. 2017 was the year I saw payoff in all that I’ve worked so hard to create. I also believe that the next coming year and going forward will be the year I see that all harvest and grow. I believe and receive that. I am forever blessed and thankful for all that has occurred in this year, good and bad. Who I was at the start of 2017 is not who I am as I the page turns and I say goodbye.
I have transformed. I have died and been born anew. I know just how much this year has taught me. I know the feeling of snatching my happiness back. I know the feeling of learning who I am, learning how powerful I am and standing in that power and truth. The feeling of taking my control back over life will forever be embedded in me. I stand before the world reemerged as the true Goddess that I am, ready to embark on this new phase of my life. I wish you all a year of success, blessings, growth, prosperity, love, and light. You all are divinely blessed and are such a blessing and great addition to my life. I love each and every one of you. Have a Happy and Safe New Year. See you all in 2018!
Be Inspired. Be Encouraged. Be Blessed.